I have decided this is my stress on the verge of crying blog. Not just because I can type the way I want, but that no one really reads this, so hear it goes  I am having the tough time in school. I can't seem to do better than B work. I know I am better than this, but I don't feel like it right now. I completely backed into this guy today and I didn't get his info, but he got mine. I am completely freaking out! I told my parents of course, but I am so frustrated. I feel like I was completely taken advantage of. The guy saw a young female and now I will be paying for it. I am tired of feeling like I am incompetent. I try and try and never feel like I get head way. I read my scriptures, I try to pray, I go to church, but I still feel like I am getting punched in the face. Well, my frustration and stupidity is real, but my will power hanging on by a thread. I just want to curl into a ball and not move, but that can't happen since I have school and people to serve. Remind me why I try to be everywhere for everyone, but yet I don't succeed in helping anyone. Sometimes I wish an old friend would just call and say Hi. I have missed you, but no such luck I am the sappy doormat that calls my old friends just to stay connected. Someday, I will be the friend that people call from a long time ago and say hey, I have missed you. I am thankful for my friends in my life now, but how long will they be in my life? A breath, a moment, a minute? I wish I knew, but I guess I must just have to enjoy them while I can. To all my old friends, I care about you, but to all my current friends thanks, and to my future friends, I can't wait to meet you! Well, off to homework and some sleep (if I can get any).

P.S. To all those that are struggling, even those smiling are hurting inside and trust me I know how deceiving a smile can be.